.....

its been a-while since my last post..
September 9, 2014 - September 13,2014 .
I used too much money in this late 4 days..
its about NTD 3000 because we are going to night market and anything is expensive in here.
I wanted to controlled it but its sound the same..
 I couldn't control it well. 4 days in here I already meet so many people..
 I have some very good friends..
Taiwanese is really nice people.
I met Hongkong people, Taiwanese (of course) , Indonesia , and Malaysia.
my roommates are all from Malaysia. But my really best friend is Hongkong people.
in the morning later, maybe I will met one person.
for me, He is the one of the people I don't wanna meet. see, maybe because of the rejected before, there is so many awkward between us.
even in the other side, I thought I'm annoying him.
Talk about school........................
My school is really big #I WAS AMAZED WHEN JUST ARRIVED HERE
The teachers are really nice and friendly. it seems like I have another family here.
I'm missing home but for the changes, I have the other family.
I love my family and I love my friends.
I just can wish one day , my dreams will come true.
how can I enter the entertainment world when I never chase it?
I'm looking forward to attend and follow every activities and competition here. such as SINGING competition.
我一定要達到目標！！！！
有一天，我一定會跟汪大東還有西拉上台！！！！
even if my school isn't an art school, but I believe.. God have his own plan.
this is for today,

thanks for reading and


to be continue~

#StoryInTaiwan

Fourth day

its already the fourth day in Taiwan.... I visited Nantou today.  Its kinda like Lake Toba in Indonesia. the differences just in the way of the government use that lake. the lake is beautiful because no garbage in the lake, the water is much cleaner than Lake Toba. also, the government is very keep that ancient lake and city. Today my mom is arguing with me. maybe I'm not the good daughter for her. I feel sorry but I can't said it out of my mouth. I love her much more than her know. while every single word she told me, I will "NGELAWAN!!!!" I'm not a good daughter. tomorrow is the last day I meet here in this year. Maybe next year, I will back to Indonesia.
I'm sorry mom... I still a girl, I dunno what've done. but still, I love you!
the best mother ever <3

Hi Indonesia

Yeah, June 2th ago, Running Man is coming to Indonesia and joined Asian Dream Cup's game 

I feel so suck today. 

When I opened my twitter and instagram, Kang Gary , JiSukJin, Lee Gwangsoo, HaDongHoon is saying goodbye to Indonesia >< 

I'm crying 

But they had race in Indonesia.

Absolutely in Taman Safari. 

Argh, 

I wish so long for they to come to Indonesia . 

But after they came, I got no chance to meet them. 

But I believe one day, I will meet them randomly in the other area. 

I never skipped an episode in RM! Because I'm their biggest fans!! I like all>< 

I love all!!!!! 

So that will be happened in the future also! 

I will never ! Never skip any episode in RM! 

Safeflight RunningMan! 

Thanks for coming to Indonesia>< 

You all said loves Indonesia! 

And Indonesia loves you back❤️

The photo is taken in Taman Safari Indonesia

(source: twitter.inc)

How sad?!

Hello! 

Its been awhile already I suddenly stop writing here. 

Actually I dunno what'll happen in the future. 

My mom already stop me to go to Taiwan. 

Yesterday, I feel sickness here. 

I really need a strength. But I ruined my pride. 

In my sickness, I finally knew what is true friends what is fake friend. 

Absolutely yeah, Let God arranged everything for me. I believe He will give what the best for me. 

Eventhough I'm sad.. 

I can't do anything. 

But I know, my mom is my mom. 

She will do what she thinks better!! 

Mom, You know I just wait for the visa.. Suddenly you told me to stop everything. My heart is like 😢 I dunno again.. 

Taiwan is my last hope for my dream. Thats all😢

Cousin

Hi guys. 

The 17th me, finally makes a crazy decision. A big decision for my future. 

I can't tell you now. But I still will tell you later at the right time. 

Today, my little cousin going to hospital. 

You know what? 

Even in the sick condition, he can smile!! 

What a strong boy?! 

I cried because I wish I'm in his position. 

He still 11 months 3weeks. Why he must in hospital and get some injection?! 

What a poor boy T^T 

I got some training from my friend from Korea, and he said that I can be an independent girl already!! 

Yeap, I think so. 

This is photo of the day. 

Tomorrow wishes is my instagram's followers gain again until 10k! 

please follow me : chhrristinne !

This is for today! Goodbye.

Keep stalking me bloggist!

Iloveyou!!<3

Today

That feeling, come back again. 

That missing feeling in every single night accompany me again. 

My heart is ruin.

But what can I do ? 

Again and again, the fake smile covered everything. 

I want give up. But my heart is so stupid. 

You hurt me more than I deserved. I love you more than you deserved. Why am I such a fool ? 

I know that you'll never be mine and you are never care about me. You are too busy for it.

This is one of some reason why I hate long distance relationship. 

When I think the negative side, my mind will keep telling me "what if he....." 

The words which can hurt me deep is "WHAT IF?" 

 

My heart is crying until now. Maybe I should forget everything. But its not that simple. Everytime I walked out, I'll be run back to him. 

So, what should I do now?

Aquarius's fact

Please just translate into your language. 

This is so real!! 

　 　

水瓶座

水瓶座，为了友情和爱情能达到一个无法想象的极限，不抛弃，不分开，哪怕不是对方的爱，但是也不纠缠，厚道直白的水瓶座纵使有太多的软弱，也抵不住它天 生悲观的使者角色，如果你爱上水瓶，你得到的会是平凡的温暖和永远的爱，如果你不爱水瓶，水瓶会在静默中给予你想要的自由和未来。

　 　水瓶座的人，笑起来是个孩子，冷起来是个谜。一抹温婉纯真的笑容就能掩盖一颗多愁善感的心。对于感兴趣的事情抓住不撒手,执着的可怕。对于不感兴趣的人 没表情,连装也难。拒绝一切装的人事物。性格敏感,占有欲强烈,缺乏安全感而有依赖感。喜欢胡思乱想,过份回忆过去沉浸悲伤难释怀。自责心令人汗颜。水瓶 女是很容易患得患失的，特别是在晚上容易抽风，抽的很厉害……每到晚上就会变成林黛玉，感性的要死。想 难过，只好让自己难过。总是认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，把自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。对方提的任何过分的要求，水瓶座统统照单全收、精心尽 力，绝对不会有半个不字。他们不知道，到最后受伤的其实是自己 冒险，就是爱上一个人。因为水瓶永远也不知道，自己全身心的投入，最终会换来什么。这就像是一场轮盘赌，水瓶明知可能会输，但又忍不住想投身其中。其实， 水瓶真正需要的，并不是赌赢，而是一个能令水瓶收手的人。因为最终征服水瓶的人，会令水瓶失去爱其他人的能力

　 　水瓶座的孩子总是在犹豫，渴望有人陪，可自己骨子里要求自己不准这样做。因为太爱对方，不想让对方讨厌，所以，T瓶子们想让对方觉得自己并不在乎，装的 很无所谓。于是最后瓶子们真的失去了。然后，一个人默默的承受许多许多，却依然装作无所谓，却后悔那些在乎没有告诉对方。

　 　水瓶最擅长的是难为自己。不想对方难过，只好让自己难过。总是认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，把自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。对方提的任何过分的 要求，水瓶座统统照单全收、精心尽力，绝对不会有半个不字。他们不知道，到最后受伤的其实是自己，只是不知道如何去表现。

Hello

Oh my God,

I'm so sorry for not share anything here since last month. 

Okay, let me share my favorite artist, my life, my cute memory, or maybe I fallen to someone again. 

Lets talk from my favorite singer. 

I have a new favorite singer, 

That singer is so motivated me. 

Be honest, I have a big dream to be a famous singer and actress. I ever gave up to chase that dream. Until now, I think I also can't do anything for make it come true!!! 

After I know more about this singer, I feel that I can be like her!! 

She is RIHANNA!!! 

My motivated singer. 

She is so famous in this world. Even my friend who doesn't like western song and never wanna know about western entertainment world, KNOW HER!! You see, how famous is she?!

I keep motivated my heart, 

You will, you can, you have to did it!!! 

I keep telling my mind, 

"Someday, I will stand on a big stage. Sing for everyone. Everyone will claps hand for me. I will have a huge fans community, stalk by so many paparazzi and fans everywhere. My face and poster everywhere. And I can entertain the person which in the broken feeling." 

I gonna make it happen!!!! 

Okay, 

Lets move to the news. 

Yeah, Finally, I got the news from Taiwan. That my data already received by them. 

Also, Hsinhua and Proffesor Huang came to my school and gave me surprise!!! 

How great were they!! 

This is the photo which taken in school field! 

We also went to bank together! 

And also, they were visited my family in our small shop.

I'm fat in the last photo. But, its okay.

Oh thats right, I knew a new friend from Hongkong which studied in Taiwan. 

I wish that guy didn't same with Leung Keuw.

 

A small cute chat with him makes a sweetest smile. Hahahaha XD~

I'm facing my last school exam in this seven days. Today is the 6th day. Until today, Its clear!! Least 1 day. Wish the best for it!

Maybe this is for today.

Gonna miss me?! 

So keep stalking my blog diary!! 

Thankyou for reading my cutest bloggist!! 

Koala and Panda

I miss the little things that he has done before. The little things that he has done was simply tickle my heart. 

Today, its the memorial day for me. 2 years already we broke up. Although just 3 days we been together, but it was the happiness days for me. Be honest, He ever gave me the second chance but I ruined it. He was so angry that time. I asked for apologize and he was forgive me. But the consequence, he never believed that I regret it much. I REGRET FOR EVERYTHING. Nowdays, I'll start hating myself when I was remember it. He  makes me frozen. Panda, how he called me before. I miss that name today. As I know, Panda and Koala never matched! And thats happened for us now. He left me for a reason and I regret because of me. 

For Koala, thanks for ever being the cutest part of mylife. I love our memories so much. 

Someday, I'll leave this town and start to learn the real life outside.

So guys, before you do something, think carefully. If you make any mistakes, you will be same as me. Regret for everything and everything will be like hell for you. And the last is, 

"Appreciate those who loves you" 

Because the people who loves you less than the people who hates you! 

Wish you never same as me. 

Goodbye and Godblessyou! 

February 19,2014

Hey bloggist, 

How are you? 

Mmmm, you must know that today I miss that boy much. 

I wanna chat him, but I'm afraid of disturb him. 

Omg, I dunno what to do again. 

Yes, my little boy what are you doing right now? 

Did you eat any healthy food today? 

Or did you drink much water? 

How was your body? 

Is that good anyway? 

Did you feel extremely tired? 

At least, 

Let me chat him, God

But, my heart doesn't allow me. 

Missing a part in my life piece.

Shit, it feels unbelievable! 

Sorry

This few weeks, I didn't post anything. 

I'm sorry. 

Not because of busy. But because of how my heart feels. There's not mood when I remember how is he face me. Two days ago, there was a valentine day. Even my sister have her valentine. But its different for me. 

I like someone. 

Lets called him koala. 

Koala is my exboyfriend. I ever wasted him. Maybe because of it, he felt disgusting of me. 

I dunno since when he started chat me over bbm. But, when he started it.. It slowly makes me feel loving someone. That feelings already gone since that master of study boy left me. 

A week ago, it was my birthday. I didn't make a party. But lucky, I have my friends. They are my best friends ever. Kartika is the most. She planned to surprise me. Hahaha 

And that was success!!! 

At the same time of my birthday, CindyHong also make a party in kok tong cafe. Yeah, her birthday also!

I just treat Venedict and Koala. After that birthday treat, Koala's attitude changed until 360degree. His chat way wasn't the same anymore. When I asked him, and he answered "Lazy chat". In my opinion, lazy with me [probably]. 

Today, our church celebrated valentine day. Oh my god! Venedict is the romantic boy. Okay.. Be honest!! IF, he isn't venedict.. Maybe I will fall to him. But the matter is he is VENEDICT. Hahaha 

(VENEDICT{right}) 

Oh right, I gave koala valentine gift. But when I gave him, my heart so breaks. And when everyone already went out from the church.. There was me alone in the church! I prayed! I cried. I asked God to let me know what is this world. And the last of my prayer, I prayed for koala and for taiwan. 

Today also, I made mistakes. My aunt was really angry and mad at me. Because of my dad went to temple, I must waited for my uncle in law for drove me there. Yeah, I was late to church. Yeah, My heart felt a deep pain. Thats why I cried in church when everyone went out already. I dunno why I must cry, but this is what called by heart! 

Heart will respond to eyes and mind.

Happy Late Valentine!!! 

Argh

Hi bloggistt..

I got a nick name for my blog viewer. 

Hahahaha 

I got it from one of the viewer. Better called bloggist than a reader. 

Good morning.

Have a great Sunday. 

As you know, it still 7 am.

I hate Sunday! Not like the other friends. 

Why? 

The things that I don't like to do is moving. I slept so late in the saturday night. And I have to wake up so early in the morning. 

I have a mandarin tuition at 8am.

Before I have it, I woke up at 9 and slowly move to bathroom prepare to church. 

But whats now? I must wake at 7, goes to mandarin class, after that.. Goes to church. 

Shit, can't rest even sunday. 

So, why I hate sunday? 

Yes! That is the reason. 

I'll share my day if my WiFi doesn't have any problem tonight. 

Yesterday it angry with me. It doesn't work!!! And I fooled by it. Hahahahaha. 

So this is my sunday morning. 

Goodbye. 

And again! Have a great sunday for you! 

Hey

Hey guys. 

Do you ever feel a warm and a secure feeling?

Someone which can makes you feel comfort with any condition. 

Hm, so far.. Never!!! 

No ones ever give me a warm, secure, comfort feeling. 

In my school, there were so many couple. 

Yeap! Sometimes, I was so envy. Jealous for their romantic situation. Can laugh together. 

I wanna have the feelings like :

Someone is waiting for me outside after the school bell ring. 

Or 

Someone is waiting for me come to canteen, someone bought me a breakfast and eat together.. 

So cute right? 

Hahaha. 

Someday, I'll have it. 

Bytheway, 

I feel so awkward when everybody asked me where I'm go for the university. Yeah, now I learned something. 

My life isn't my choice. Its about my boss and my queen decision. But, I take it easy. I enjoyed it. If I really care about it, I might be crazy. 

Also, I already look for some university in Medan. 

Hahahahaha .

There are 2 universities that I like.

PERGURUAN TINGGI CENDANA and IT&B CAMPUS. 

I found Perguruan tinggi Cendana have an advance class. With double degree program. Overseas education training, which in advance class just 15 person in the class. So we can study clearly. Also, there much practice than THEORY!!! Because I hate THEORY! Hahaha 

IT&B campus is good anyway. Double degree program. Same as perguruan tinggi cendana, but.. My uncle was graduated there. And my auntie is in semester 1 there.

I still look forward for the much better quality university in Taiwan. 

If Jesus is letting me go Taiwan, what ever the challenges, I must be past it. If its not my chance to there, okay.. Because I know, His plan is better than mine.

Hahahaha 

Today quotes : 

"Enjoy yourlife because you don't know when you leave." 

Goodbye 

And keep reading! 

My super mom

Today I just wanna simply introduce my mom.  

I found out my mom is the only woman which know well about me. After her, my grandma XD~ 

Actually my super mom isn't perfect. she just a simple girl which love makeup, dress, glamour things, and etc like another girl like. 

She isn't a God.

she has a heart and she can be hurt too. 

But she always love me for who I am. 

She always caring me. 

She always protect me. She has her own way for show her loves for me.

Sometimes when I was sick, she blame me!! 

But what was she angry for is why I can't loves my own body? 

Why I can't care? 

Sometimes when I got a bad score report , she also can blame me (sometimes in her hand that was a belt and I felt I gonna die at that time) 

But what she is disappointed about isn't how she hate my bad report, but why I can't study well? 

I loved her in my own way. 

I always against her when she was adviced me!  

Maybe I was too over. 

She is my mom. Who ever is she? Whatever she's done? Whenever she in a difficult time or happy time? She always shown her love to us, her girls!!! 

I love my mom and SHE IS MY UNDEFEATED MOM! 

Can You hear me?

Today is January 15th. Wow, its already 15 days in 2014. 

Be honest, last year christmas gift was the only spectacular present for me.

It feels like my dream is near me. 

day by day have past. I just so wondering what'll happen in April? 

Is that a good news? Or a storm news?

Maybe I'm too greedy, 

I want to wish the other hope when that hope haven't come true yet! 

Jesus, this time I just wish a simple wish. I wish You tell me that my true love is near. 

Jesus can You hear me? I need someone which love me and can hold me. Who can give me a secure and comfort feeling:( 

I don't need a wealth! I need a happiness!! Wish I can leave here and I can found my true love at the same time. 

Sorry for being a stupid friend! 

Bye 

Seeyou

My day and Huxia

This afternoon, I met up my family which from Taiwan. My grandma's sister bought me a beautiful earrings and a cool boots! I'm so grateful. But this evening, when my mom back home.. I was in argue with her. Meanwhile, I wanna cry and scream. At the same time, I feel wanna run from my house. I don't wanna talk bad things of my family so just let it past. Its my privacy!

I just feel so upset. I locked myself in my room and listen a heart broken song. Although its sad, Its much better in here! My heart!

Broke up with my boyfriend because a simple problem 

He asked me to hang out with his family, I said : "why so fast?" 

I don't reject him! But, I just thought it too fast. We just dated 2 weeks and he asked me meet up with his family. I know too, he is so serious in our relationship. But, you know what I mean right? 

Oh yes, I must introduce my favorite singer!! He is HUXIA (胡夏) 

In 2009, he went to Taiwan to compete in a contest called One Million Star. He won first place in 2010. At that time, he just 19! Wow, cool right! 

 

This is 3 of so many my favorite songs :

1. 那些年 (na xie nian) 

2.傷心童話 (shang xin tong hua) 

3.一定有個你 (yi ding you ge ni)

Although he is not handsome, he is kind and has a pure-hearted 

This is some picture of him

January 13th, 2014

Yesterday was the girls day out with my mom, aunts and cousins. Today is Monday! And absolutely its so hard for me to open up my eyes. Yesterday, my uncle from taiwan arrived in Medan. But, I  haven't meet him. I dunno why, suddenly I hate mandarin. I wanna study abroad, but? I feel too lazy for learn mandarin. Maybe because of the teacher. The teacher is good anyway. But she keep telling me that I was wrong. I hate when she looked down me. I thought, the duties of teacher.. One of them is support the student to be much creative, not always keep telling the student you were wrong.. If you still like that, you can't improve. She also told me that, my words doesn't beautiful!!!!! OMG! I don't wanna be arrogant, but its true! In my class(school) I was the one from 2 person which good at mandarin. I also represented my school to go to mandarin speech contest, eventhough.. I never won (hihihi).. Willy-nilly, never told student like that!! :D 

Its all for this morning.. 

I will tell what happen today when the dark finally cover today. 

Goodbye and see you!

My Girls Birthday

Today is my two girls birthday. 

17 years ago, there was a baby born in Indonesia and the baby's parents gave her name Kartika Sari. 

Be honest, Kartika is my best friend ever! Why? Because she is the one of some my best friends which always support me in every situation. 

She is same as me. Crazy too. 

so, for my Kartika.. Stay crazy, mentel, cute, fat, chualanglo, cerewet!!! Wish you all the best. More mature than before and God bless. 

18 years ago, there was a baby girl which born in Medan and her parents gave her name Sofani. She is also my supporter. But sometimes she makes me angry. She always keep silent of anything. So, whenever I shared my story.. She just listened and smile.. And she would give me a stupid suggestion. But it was good. Why? Because when my emotion was explode.. She is a good listener!! Glad to having her in my life.. But the problem is, she never shared about her sadness, happiness or anything else! so feverish!!!

For my baby.. happy birthday Sofani. Much better than before. Everlasting with your boyfie.. Wish you all the best and God bless you! 

Maybe this is for today..

Lets talk tomorrow.. 

Goodbye.

And see you 

MY FIRST JOURNAL!!

This is my first time write a diary in blog.
Today is the seventh day in 2014. Sure, I already wished so many hopes.
One of them is leave this town!!!
Its not that I'd like to say BAD THINGS about my country or LOOK DOWN MY COUNTRY
But for real!! I hate my country!! Why? Such so MUCH corruption everywhere!! 
Especially my town right now (MEDAN)
For all that I've heard that SUMUT is the meaning of (SEMUA URUSAN MENGGUNAKAN UANG TUNAI) when we translate to English it must be "ALL PROBLEM MONEY USED BY"
How dangerous is it?!
One of my teacher told me
"If you wanna have a better future or a better studied.. Don't study here!! Everything in the university is all about money.. Ex: exam paper and re-exam"
I just wanna go abroad..
But my parents opinion is freaking different with me. They thought that, every university is the same if you wanna study well. Ohh shit!! I wanna explain but I'm too afraid of it!
Because what? Whenever I CHANGED MIND with them.. At the last my emotion will explode.
So, I chose to silent. At least, wish they can understand me!

Okay this is my first journal!!!
Bye!
Wish you can be a good stalker! :D hahaha