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Hi bloggistt..

I got a nick name for my blog viewer. 

Hahahaha 

I got it from one of the viewer. Better called bloggist than a reader. 

Good morning.

Have a great Sunday. 

As you know, it still 7 am.

I hate Sunday! Not like the other friends. 

Why? 

The things that I don't like to do is moving. I slept so late in the saturday night. And I have to wake up so early in the morning. 

I have a mandarin tuition at 8am.

Before I have it, I woke up at 9 and slowly move to bathroom prepare to church. 

But whats now? I must wake at 7, goes to mandarin class, after that.. Goes to church. 

Shit, can't rest even sunday. 

So, why I hate sunday? 

Yes! That is the reason. 

I'll share my day if my WiFi doesn't have any problem tonight. 

Yesterday it angry with me. It doesn't work!!! And I fooled by it. Hahahahaha. 

So this is my sunday morning. 

Goodbye. 

And again! Have a great sunday for you! 

Hey

Hey guys. 

Do you ever feel a warm and a secure feeling?

Someone which can makes you feel comfort with any condition. 

Hm, so far.. Never!!! 

No ones ever give me a warm, secure, comfort feeling. 

In my school, there were so many couple. 

Yeap! Sometimes, I was so envy. Jealous for their romantic situation. Can laugh together. 

I wanna have the feelings like :

Someone is waiting for me outside after the school bell ring. 

Or 

Someone is waiting for me come to canteen, someone bought me a breakfast and eat together.. 

So cute right? 

Hahaha. 

Someday, I'll have it. 

Bytheway, 

I feel so awkward when everybody asked me where I'm go for the university. Yeah, now I learned something. 

My life isn't my choice. Its about my boss and my queen decision. But, I take it easy. I enjoyed it. If I really care about it, I might be crazy. 

Also, I already look for some university in Medan. 

Hahahahaha .

There are 2 universities that I like.

PERGURUAN TINGGI CENDANA and IT&B CAMPUS. 

I found Perguruan tinggi Cendana have an advance class. With double degree program. Overseas education training, which in advance class just 15 person in the class. So we can study clearly. Also, there much practice than THEORY!!! Because I hate THEORY! Hahaha 

IT&B campus is good anyway. Double degree program. Same as perguruan tinggi cendana, but.. My uncle was graduated there. And my auntie is in semester 1 there.

I still look forward for the much better quality university in Taiwan. 

If Jesus is letting me go Taiwan, what ever the challenges, I must be past it. If its not my chance to there, okay.. Because I know, His plan is better than mine.

Hahahaha 

Today quotes : 

"Enjoy yourlife because you don't know when you leave." 

Goodbye 

And keep reading! 

My super mom

Today I just wanna simply introduce my mom.  

I found out my mom is the only woman which know well about me. After her, my grandma XD~ 

Actually my super mom isn't perfect. she just a simple girl which love makeup, dress, glamour things, and etc like another girl like. 

She isn't a God.

she has a heart and she can be hurt too. 

But she always love me for who I am. 

She always caring me. 

She always protect me. She has her own way for show her loves for me.

Sometimes when I was sick, she blame me!! 

But what was she angry for is why I can't loves my own body? 

Why I can't care? 

Sometimes when I got a bad score report , she also can blame me (sometimes in her hand that was a belt and I felt I gonna die at that time) 

But what she is disappointed about isn't how she hate my bad report, but why I can't study well? 

I loved her in my own way. 

I always against her when she was adviced me!  

Maybe I was too over. 

She is my mom. Who ever is she? Whatever she's done? Whenever she in a difficult time or happy time? She always shown her love to us, her girls!!! 

I love my mom and SHE IS MY UNDEFEATED MOM! 

Can You hear me?

Today is January 15th. Wow, its already 15 days in 2014. 

Be honest, last year christmas gift was the only spectacular present for me.

It feels like my dream is near me. 

day by day have past. I just so wondering what'll happen in April? 

Is that a good news? Or a storm news?

Maybe I'm too greedy, 

I want to wish the other hope when that hope haven't come true yet! 

Jesus, this time I just wish a simple wish. I wish You tell me that my true love is near. 

Jesus can You hear me? I need someone which love me and can hold me. Who can give me a secure and comfort feeling:( 

I don't need a wealth! I need a happiness!! Wish I can leave here and I can found my true love at the same time. 

Sorry for being a stupid friend! 

Bye 

Seeyou

My day and Huxia

This afternoon, I met up my family which from Taiwan. My grandma's sister bought me a beautiful earrings and a cool boots! I'm so grateful. But this evening, when my mom back home.. I was in argue with her. Meanwhile, I wanna cry and scream. At the same time, I feel wanna run from my house. I don't wanna talk bad things of my family so just let it past. Its my privacy!

I just feel so upset. I locked myself in my room and listen a heart broken song. Although its sad, Its much better in here! My heart!

Broke up with my boyfriend because a simple problem 

He asked me to hang out with his family, I said : "why so fast?" 

I don't reject him! But, I just thought it too fast. We just dated 2 weeks and he asked me meet up with his family. I know too, he is so serious in our relationship. But, you know what I mean right? 

Oh yes, I must introduce my favorite singer!! He is HUXIA (胡夏) 

In 2009, he went to Taiwan to compete in a contest called One Million Star. He won first place in 2010. At that time, he just 19! Wow, cool right! 

 

This is 3 of so many my favorite songs :

1. 那些年 (na xie nian) 

2.傷心童話 (shang xin tong hua) 

3.一定有個你 (yi ding you ge ni)

Although he is not handsome, he is kind and has a pure-hearted 

This is some picture of him

January 13th, 2014

Yesterday was the girls day out with my mom, aunts and cousins. Today is Monday! And absolutely its so hard for me to open up my eyes. Yesterday, my uncle from taiwan arrived in Medan. But, I  haven't meet him. I dunno why, suddenly I hate mandarin. I wanna study abroad, but? I feel too lazy for learn mandarin. Maybe because of the teacher. The teacher is good anyway. But she keep telling me that I was wrong. I hate when she looked down me. I thought, the duties of teacher.. One of them is support the student to be much creative, not always keep telling the student you were wrong.. If you still like that, you can't improve. She also told me that, my words doesn't beautiful!!!!! OMG! I don't wanna be arrogant, but its true! In my class(school) I was the one from 2 person which good at mandarin. I also represented my school to go to mandarin speech contest, eventhough.. I never won (hihihi).. Willy-nilly, never told student like that!! :D 

Its all for this morning.. 

I will tell what happen today when the dark finally cover today. 

Goodbye and see you!

My Girls Birthday

Today is my two girls birthday. 

17 years ago, there was a baby born in Indonesia and the baby's parents gave her name Kartika Sari. 

Be honest, Kartika is my best friend ever! Why? Because she is the one of some my best friends which always support me in every situation. 

She is same as me. Crazy too. 

so, for my Kartika.. Stay crazy, mentel, cute, fat, chualanglo, cerewet!!! Wish you all the best. More mature than before and God bless. 

18 years ago, there was a baby girl which born in Medan and her parents gave her name Sofani. She is also my supporter. But sometimes she makes me angry. She always keep silent of anything. So, whenever I shared my story.. She just listened and smile.. And she would give me a stupid suggestion. But it was good. Why? Because when my emotion was explode.. She is a good listener!! Glad to having her in my life.. But the problem is, she never shared about her sadness, happiness or anything else! so feverish!!!

For my baby.. happy birthday Sofani. Much better than before. Everlasting with your boyfie.. Wish you all the best and God bless you! 

Maybe this is for today..

Lets talk tomorrow.. 

Goodbye.

And see you 

MY FIRST JOURNAL!!

This is my first time write a diary in blog.
Today is the seventh day in 2014. Sure, I already wished so many hopes.
One of them is leave this town!!!
Its not that I'd like to say BAD THINGS about my country or LOOK DOWN MY COUNTRY
But for real!! I hate my country!! Why? Such so MUCH corruption everywhere!! 
Especially my town right now (MEDAN)
For all that I've heard that SUMUT is the meaning of (SEMUA URUSAN MENGGUNAKAN UANG TUNAI) when we translate to English it must be "ALL PROBLEM MONEY USED BY"
How dangerous is it?!
One of my teacher told me
"If you wanna have a better future or a better studied.. Don't study here!! Everything in the university is all about money.. Ex: exam paper and re-exam"
I just wanna go abroad..
But my parents opinion is freaking different with me. They thought that, every university is the same if you wanna study well. Ohh shit!! I wanna explain but I'm too afraid of it!
Because what? Whenever I CHANGED MIND with them.. At the last my emotion will explode.
So, I chose to silent. At least, wish they can understand me!

Okay this is my first journal!!!
Bye!
Wish you can be a good stalker! :D hahaha