Koala and Panda

I miss the little things that he has done before. The little things that he has done was simply tickle my heart. 

Today, its the memorial day for me. 2 years already we broke up. Although just 3 days we been together, but it was the happiness days for me. Be honest, He ever gave me the second chance but I ruined it. He was so angry that time. I asked for apologize and he was forgive me. But the consequence, he never believed that I regret it much. I REGRET FOR EVERYTHING. Nowdays, I'll start hating myself when I was remember it. He  makes me frozen. Panda, how he called me before. I miss that name today. As I know, Panda and Koala never matched! And thats happened for us now. He left me for a reason and I regret because of me. 

For Koala, thanks for ever being the cutest part of mylife. I love our memories so much. 

Someday, I'll leave this town and start to learn the real life outside.

So guys, before you do something, think carefully. If you make any mistakes, you will be same as me. Regret for everything and everything will be like hell for you. And the last is, 

"Appreciate those who loves you" 

Because the people who loves you less than the people who hates you! 

Wish you never same as me. 

Goodbye and Godblessyou! 

February 19,2014

Hey bloggist, 

How are you? 

Mmmm, you must know that today I miss that boy much. 

I wanna chat him, but I'm afraid of disturb him. 

Omg, I dunno what to do again. 

Yes, my little boy what are you doing right now? 

Did you eat any healthy food today? 

Or did you drink much water? 

How was your body? 

Is that good anyway? 

Did you feel extremely tired? 

At least, 

Let me chat him, God

But, my heart doesn't allow me. 

Missing a part in my life piece.

Shit, it feels unbelievable! 

Sorry

This few weeks, I didn't post anything. 

I'm sorry. 

Not because of busy. But because of how my heart feels. There's not mood when I remember how is he face me. Two days ago, there was a valentine day. Even my sister have her valentine. But its different for me. 

I like someone. 

Lets called him koala. 

Koala is my exboyfriend. I ever wasted him. Maybe because of it, he felt disgusting of me. 

I dunno since when he started chat me over bbm. But, when he started it.. It slowly makes me feel loving someone. That feelings already gone since that master of study boy left me. 

A week ago, it was my birthday. I didn't make a party. But lucky, I have my friends. They are my best friends ever. Kartika is the most. She planned to surprise me. Hahaha 

And that was success!!! 

At the same time of my birthday, CindyHong also make a party in kok tong cafe. Yeah, her birthday also!

I just treat Venedict and Koala. After that birthday treat, Koala's attitude changed until 360degree. His chat way wasn't the same anymore. When I asked him, and he answered "Lazy chat". In my opinion, lazy with me [probably]. 

Today, our church celebrated valentine day. Oh my god! Venedict is the romantic boy. Okay.. Be honest!! IF, he isn't venedict.. Maybe I will fall to him. But the matter is he is VENEDICT. Hahaha 

(VENEDICT{right}) 

Oh right, I gave koala valentine gift. But when I gave him, my heart so breaks. And when everyone already went out from the church.. There was me alone in the church! I prayed! I cried. I asked God to let me know what is this world. And the last of my prayer, I prayed for koala and for taiwan. 

Today also, I made mistakes. My aunt was really angry and mad at me. Because of my dad went to temple, I must waited for my uncle in law for drove me there. Yeah, I was late to church. Yeah, My heart felt a deep pain. Thats why I cried in church when everyone went out already. I dunno why I must cry, but this is what called by heart! 

Heart will respond to eyes and mind.

Happy Late Valentine!!!